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最近我心情都好复杂好不开心哦

所以选择回来这里

至少我有个地方可以说出我的心情

说真的 我之前是有想过要分开

可是在他病了在医院的那个时候

他不在我床边的时候 我是真的真的好想他

又好想 又好担心

我才知道原来 我不能离开他

不过它应该都是不知道的吧

因为我在他面前

就是不会表现得出来

但这几天都觉得很痛苦

不知道为什么

他好像已经不一样了

之前的坏感觉都回来了

水龙头就开始坏了 关不起来

狮子座的确是很悲观 爱胡思乱想

我真的不知道要怎么做

到底是因为什么事

而导致我们之间有了一道很厚的墙

对他

说话了 又不理不睬

靠近你 又叫我走开点

你的事 还要别人来告诉我

我却都不知道

觉得我好像什么都不在乎

但他就是不知道我在乎的是什么

到他出去做工了的时候

我还能拿什么来跟他维持这段感情啊

我要怎么说

要怎么做

Worry U

I was really worry u now
when i look at u im really heartache
see u so suffer


just now when u finish ur operation
i see u
u..
u look so pity and suffer
i really feel want to cry at there
but cant
i hope i can stay with u there
but they dun give me
and u still faint sleeping havent wake up

i was REALLY SO WORRY YOU
when i think about ur face my heart is really pain
tear will be shed their
I'd rather lay in bed is me~aiskk


i miss u so much
i miss u stay with me
i miss u talk with me
i miss u everything is be with me


hope u can faster recover
i will always acc u and beside u
wait u wake up here
miss you~ worry you

Stupid abortion

I just saw a video in facebook
really SUCK !!


Abortion
Before when i know i have baby already
and when i know have baby in my stomach that time
the baby have 5 month already
at that time i really have think dun want the baby

but when i think he should kill really sad
and he still have a life
if really want to kill him
is really pity

just saw the video is about abortion
start is let us see all the baby
after explain and show us how they do the surgery
help baby tear apart the baby limbs then slowly to take up in the mother stomach
the baby head clip broken ( can see the baby brain out )


is really SUCK !!
but can let all the girl know dun easy to kill your own baby
he is living !! is u kill your own baby
mean that u are a murderer !!
DON　BE CRUEL


if i was do that now i really cant see what my baby is
and the baby is really pity
when he appeared in this world
you can see he really cute
lucky i never do that for my baby



i love my baby^^
He was so cute
muackx ♥

Hear Me Cry

you couldn't say
needed someone new
you actually thought
deep inside i knew
can you tell me how can you say
why this should suffice
you passed me by
and your heart as cold as ice (you passed me by)
did you see me cry (did you ask yourself why)
did you see me cry (did you ask yourself how)
can you hear me cry (did you ask yourself)
will we ever grew apart
you, you couldn't say
needed someone new
and you actually thought
deep inside i knew
i wonder where we will go
will we be the same (you passed me by)
i laugh inside i think of you
and the love we made (you passed me by)
tell me why this should suffice

Because of love

Because love, so I believe that

Try not to think about things that are not happy

Try when nothing happened no

I believe there is love between us

Hope that no any attempt to conceal
Hope that there is no betrayal
Hope that no quarrel
Hope that no one indifferent
Hope that no lie


Because it is really love, I choose to believe that



I love you ♥ forever

Nothing

有些事情在我心里藏了很久
每一天都在想同样的事
感觉很无奈 无言


有些事想说出来却又不知怎么开口
也不应该说出来吧
免得有些事情又会改变
在你的生活里 我真的不是很了解你的事
但你对我的事却都知
每当有人问起有关你的事
我真的不知怎么回答
只好微笑而代过


一时在家的我真的会怀疑
在家 什么事都不清楚
对你一时也会变得冷淡 气你
试着控制自己
想了也觉得多余跟无聊
但脑里会起了疑心
对不起
真得很讨厌这样的自己
拿自己来烦的 ishh..


当我在对自己发泄吧~.~


但愿一切都维持原状
没有任何改变
这样就足够了


Nothing changed
before the same in my heart ♥

30 days on the 10 day

Today is a boring day
hmmx..
actually everyday also boring at home
but today just me and my baby and my puppy at home


now only 10 days
still need tahan 3 week..
very boring boring
everyday eat the same thing
everyday do the same thing
everyday think the same thing


cant wash my hair
cant drink cold water
cant eat fruit
many things is cant
aiskk=.=


everyday just sleep a few hour
need keep fit also..
cant see my body really fat..



TAHAN
tahan more 3 week..i was free lak..!!!!!!!!!!!

Distressed

Baby born is a happy thing
but..
my puppy
when i saw her im really feel distressed


when i come back home the first day
she was very pity
she not really have people sayang already
because the baby cant near by the hairy dog
so when she near by baby sure get scold


yesterday baby sleep with me
before my puppy also sleep with me
now she cant sleep with me
and my room she also cant go in
then she keep at out side my room claw the door
her voice very miserable
really pity
her bed her everything like what also no already


midnight she bangsai cincai
anywhere also have her shit
her bangsai like water
so let my family scold and hit
morning and afternoon also same keep bangsai water
somemore still vomit dun want eat
my mum dun want bring her go see doctor because need take care baby
i cant go out also
see her keep let people scold and hit
saw her pity face look with me
my heart really pain
when thinking she was very pity
my tears would be come out


then i call my cousin to take her go see doctor
i think she is because is us away from her already
make her get sick
i plan want to put her at my cousin there will more better
at least not always let people scold and hit~
haixx

Welcom to the world ♥

200210 the date is my baby come to this world the day
this my cute baby ♥


He have a big eyes
He have a prominent nose
He have a small mouth
Both is like dady ♥




SHARE MY EXPERIENCE ~

when the first day i go hospital check
because my period is coming
my stomach and my waist have a bit start to pain
bt still havent want to born the baby
so i need to stay at the hospital wait
after midnight 2.30a.m my stomach start very pain
is super pain and come many blood
then call the nurse
nurse bring me go to the maternity
that time the doctor ask me dun want to push the baby first
because im still not yet ready to born the baby
need to tahan
but really hard tahan because that time really pain feel want to crazy
after i have ready to born the baby
i was push it 3.12 a.m my baby is come out already
finally he came to this world
when i saw him i'm really feel happy and relax
welcome to my baby came in this world ♥


i love you baby ♥ u really so cute

Today is coming..BUT

Today is coming..
but..
hahaha..
he still dun want to come out in this world..


many people also ask me i'm nervous??
i think a bit lak
yesterday night i can't sleep..
start to keep thinking when baby want come out
what feeling i will
now my whole body is become balloon already
very very fat and swollen
my leg very pain now..aiskk=.=
leg easy cramps T_T
dunno when my body can become normal back
>.<
cant tahan keep saw my body is fat like balloon @@
haha
i want faster slim back!!!!!



But
i really look forward to his arrival
^^
and hope everythings will be fine


and


Happy chinese new years to all

120210

Today just a normal days..
i go my cousin house play mahjong..
muahahaha
win jok some money $_$
very lucky ^^v


after go HOHO eat..
chicken chop..hahaha
dear cant go wah..cause need to go work..
very cham..xD


just now play the fireworks puipui very scare oh..
hear the big sound bong bong bong..
afraid of hide at under the table
very funny


and



this few days got somethings happen again
a bit feel trouble
aiskk
sometime i need to do the mediator really hard
scare this dun like scare that dun like
need to care they feeling
but hope anythings will be ok~~




waiting dear back ^^

Hot

Hot Hot Hot
Very hot ah..
this few day also very hot =.=*


so today keep at room only
haha..
then suddenly in the room find Pokemon DVD to watch it
my favorites cartoon..
muahahaha


CNY coming soon already
i have to buy 2 new cloth for my CNY
but dunno will suddenly born or not..
if suddenly born..cloth also no need wear already lor=.=
haha
very cham..
hope can late a bit born will more better..
hahaha
let me CNY no need at hospital..=X
haha


Hope all have a nice CNY loh^^

Baby ♥

Yesterday go with my mum check the stomach
hehe
my baby very health
any part also have
sometime will scare baby some place is gone
haha=.=
watch too much tv already
so scare the baby will like they..
EEee..pppp..
My baby is nice..♥


Baby have 2.6kg already oh..
will fat?
maybe normal..
still have 2 week more like that..
baby will come out luh~
really looking forward to what the baby out ♥


Need to start to learn how to become a nice mumy luh ~.~
i think i can do it..
hahahahaha xD

Bin Tai Lou

Today..
And Yesterday
got bin tai lou find me at MSN also
very stupid


1- ask me Sex Cam
2- ask me Sex Chat

Keep ask me...!!
Make me feel very very wat tak ah
Msn have a lot of people is me dunno geh
dunno how come they get my Msn
ishhhh...
STUPID..


Now dunno why feel very moody
my cousin that stupid BB always make me angry
really really angry him!!
arhhhhhhh!!


bt today when play mahjong win rm4
haha=.=
still got one more things is not Bad ~

Go Out Luh

Today go shopping luh
finally today no need just at home
hehe^^
because dear kckc act sick dun want go work
hahaha


then me and my sis chola and dear go to sunway
watch LEGION
hmmx..
this movie the story
no comment
dunno want say nice or not nice
because some really stupid some nice like that
hahaha

dunno now still got what nice movie can watch leh
u all got some nice movie to intro??


After just walk walk go back luh
hehe
but happy also
long time never go out already
Go out walk walk is nice^^v

250110

Today morning my stomach and my heart really pain
when move a bit also pain@.@
now feel my stomach really heavy
really need slowly slowly to walk =.=
start to suffer already


afternoon very boring
just me and puipui at home
nothing to do
keep treat the computer
keep play game play game
and make my blog look more nicely a little bit
hahaha


My mum say want give her grandson learn play drum
but my sis say want let him learn piano
piano really not bad ma
haha..
will become very romantic ma
rite??




*waiting dear come back now..

心情

今天的有些感想
现在的我都一直在家
因为一些事就改变了我的生活


但就因为这样
让我更没有安全感吧
我就只能一直玩电脑游戏
又怎么样
不能去哪里就只能在家对着电脑啊
他回到来就吃了东西就上网 跟他朋友聊天什么的
我也不知道
一时我真的觉得很气
不知道他到底要的是什么
也不知道他在想什么做什么
他在外面做工我也看不到他在做什么


不过 他对我蛮好的
也蠻包容我的啊
因为我脾气不好嘛~.~


但是 男人啊～
还是一个贪新鲜的嘛
旧的看久了就会想要新的
你也不能做什么
因为不像以前那样要做什么就做什么
现在要想的东西有很多
不能只顾单方面的问题
原来对得越多 就更没安全感
希望我的选择是没有错的
唉～
想到这些眼睛就觉得酸酸的


一时一个人睡觉时
就会想到一些不好的事
还好还有我的宝贝狗一直陪在我旁边
至少心情没那么差
也许这是我单方面愚蠢的想法
不过写出来了
心情都会好点
累了 睡觉吧
晚安

My Life is Change

Now my life is change
Somethings is change my life
But i'm no regret
i believe he is nice for me..

Now everday only at home
always treat the pc dunno can do play
play game
only like that

but im happy also
because im waiting my sweet heart come out in my word
He will at CNY to come out
So CNY i need to at home also
His name is edward leh..
but still not yet confirm..very hard to thinking wanna use what name for him..
haha
The date near already leh
sometime when thinking really feel a bit scare >.<
but i will bealive myself can do it

that time hope someone can beside me...^^